Memorial Day

Today, we honor those who marched off to war, and were carried home. Never forget the sacrifices these men and women have made to protect the freedoms we enjoy today.

At 3:00pm, please, whatever you are doing, pause and for one moment stand with an uncovered head and right hand on your heart. Reflect about this day, about the fact that we have sent hundreds of thousands of our best and brightest to die on foreign shores. Some still sleep there, near where they fell.

The other day, I purchased an HBO Film on DVD, called “Taking Chance.” It is the story about a young man who was killed in Iraq, and his final journey home, escorted by a USMC Lt. Col, played by Kevin Bacon. It is touching and poignant, a story about the heartland of America, and how our honored dead are treated.

Visit a veterans Cemetary today. Thank those who sleep there for their service and sacrifice. Walk softly, heroes lie sleeping there. And never forget those who died at sea, for that is their grave.

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Update: Honor The Fallen

Where I’ve been!

I’m sorry that it’s been so long since I have posted. March was a “lost” month for me.

You see, on the evening of February 28th, I was at the lodge cooking a meal for my brothers, prior to a degree. The main course was pork steaks. Well, a bite of it got stuck in my throat. It turns out that I have GERD, which is an erosion of my esophagus. It got stuck so good, that nothing could get by. So, strong headed me (I’m a Taurus, born in the year of the Ox) drove myself to the nearest hospital.

Once in the ER, they sedated me and proceeded to intubate me so I could breathe while they performed an endoscopy to remove the food stuck in my throat.

It turns out that I had two erosions, one below the brachia (where the food was stuck) and one above. It took several attempts before they got it right, but in the process my esophagus swelled up from the multiple attempts.

So, I went under sedation on Thursday night, and woke up Sunday afternoon, when they were able to remove the breathing tubes. I was in the ICU for 5 days, and a regular room for a week. I just got the bill, the hospital charged my just shy of $125,000 for 12 days in the hospital.

I also now have “Sciatic Neuropathy,” which means that my right leg is in pain from my hip to my knee, and I am numb and partially paralyzed from my knee down. I walked into the hospital under my own power, and I now hobble around with a cane. I am told that it will eventually get better, but I may end up with this cane for the rest of my life.

So, the first 12 days of March I spent in the hospital, and I spent the rest of the month chasing down things and seeing doctors about my leg. I was very lucky, my supervisor put me on short term disability as of the 1st of March, and I managed to get paid until the end of the month. I started back to work as of the 1st of April, and I am working from home full time until this leg gets better.

Read and Heed

Stanislav Mishin on his blog Mat Rodina came up with this excellent piece of history about Russia and the Soviet Union. It is also a warning to all Americans who are idly watching President Obama trying to strip Americans of the RKBA by Executive fiat Order.

Here is the money quote:

Moscow fell, for example, not from a lack of weapons to defend it, but from the lieing guile of the Reds. Ten thousand Reds took Moscow and were opposed only by some few hundreds of officer cadets and their instructors. Even then the battle was fierce and losses high. However, in the city alone, at that time, lived over 30,000 military officers (both active and retired), all with their own issued weapons and ammunition, plus tens of thousands of other citizens who were armed. The Soviets promised to leave them all alone if they did not intervene. They did not and for that were asked afterwards to come register themselves and their weapons: where they were promptly shot. (Emphasis mine)

Here is the lesson:

No it is about power and a total power over the people. There is a lot of desire to bad mouth the Tsar, particularly by the Communists, who claim he was a tyrant, and yet under him we were armed and under the progressives disarmed. Do not be fooled by a belief that progressives, leftists hate guns. Oh, no, they do not. What they hate is guns in the hands of those who are not marching in lock step of their ideology. They hate guns in the hands of those who think for themselves and do not obey without question. They hate guns in those whom they have slated for a barrel to the back of the ear.

Read it. And open your eyes.

One of millions…

…Not one in a million.

What do I mean? I found this article and this scenario plays out a lot more than a tragedy like Newtown. I am a Life member of the National Rifle Association. I have been since I purchased my first firearm. The one steady part of every issue of the American Rifleman is the page that has 12-15 news article summaries where it made the news that someone successfully used a firearm in self-defense.

I have been a Life member for about 22 years, so that is about 3,168 articles that I have seen. And I guarantee you, for every article that made American Rifleman, there is 1,000 articles that didn’t make the cut. And for each of those, there is another 1,000 “events” that no one knows about, except for the people involved in that.

Millions of times each year, an armed citizen successfully defends themselves and/or innocents from evil people. And Newtown is literally one in a million occurrence. There are hundreds of thousands of schools in this country and tragedies like this occur so infrequently that when they do happen, they splash across the news like a 400 pound man doing a cannonball into a swimming pool.

What you never see in the news is a bad person coming to up to a law-abiding citizen and says “give me your money.” The law-abiding, legally armed citizen pulls their licensed firearm, points it at the bad person and says, “I don’t think so.” At this point, the bad person generally runs away, no shots fired. It doesn’t make the news because really nothing happened.

You should never expect the police to come to your aid in time. Events like this are measured in seconds. It takes minutes for the police to arrive on the scene, and that is after someone calls 911. When your life, or the lives of your family are in danger, what would you rather have, a gun in your hand or the police on the phone? The police are under no legal obligation to protect citizens.

The job of the police is to investigate crimes and make arrests. The police are paid and obligated to enforce all of the laws of the land, not just the ones they like. They will arrest you for some “petty” crime just as fast as they will arrest someone else for assault or murder. The police are not your friends. If you have their attention, they can arrest you for anything they want. I’ll tell you right now, it is impossible to walk down the street, minding your own business and not violate some law or ordinance.

The RKBA is not about hunting. It’s about self-defense from evil people, especially from the government. The Second Amendment protects the other freedoms we enjoy. If the government can take away the Second, what makes you think they won’t take the rest of them away from you?

Yet another tragedy

I have waited until now to comment on the tragedy in Connecticut for several reasons. First, I wanted some facts to come out. The “facts” that came out Friday and Saturday were all wrong. With the 24 hour news cycle, and the up-to-the-second breathless news reporting the media feels they have to provide makes sure of that.

Second, I wanted to see who would stoop to the knee-jerk reaction of “let’s ban the guns,” a modified Godwin’s Law.

What happened is a tragedy of unimaginable proportions. Make no mistake about that. It should never have happened. It should have been stopped long before the first bullet was fired. But, how do we do that?

Take a step back with me and look at this objectively. A young man, who as of this moment has some sort of a mental illness. Was he adequately treated for his illness? Was he monitored by professionals? That information may or may not come out in the future. We may never know.

It is a fact that someone like this does not wake up one day and go on such a rampage. There was a long train of events that preceded this and it was a sequential progression. There was a reason and purpose behind his actions. I promise you, no matter how hard you try, you will never fully “make sense” of his reasons. Unless you have personally experienced a mental illness, you will never comprehend it. I can try to explain, but it will still not make sense. In my dark past, I used to have “psychotic breaks” where I would lose at least some touch with reality. That’s what the shrinks say. Experiencing it, the best way I can describe is was that everything came into perfect clarity. You could see connections between things that no one else saw. Everything made perfect sense. And you knew you had to act on it. That’s what I remember from my psychotic breaks.

And he acted on it. With the tools he had on hand. And tragedy ensued.

Before you get all uptight about him using using firearms, There are two instances that I can recall where a man with mental health problems attacked a class of Kindergarteners… with a knife. One was in Japan, where there are virtually no private firearms. So, you use the tools that you have on hand. Banning guns only leads to knife and other hand weapons being used.

Next, the mental health system is currently focused on solving any immediate crisis, rather than the prevention and maintenance that would forestall the crisis situations. But maintenance and control of symptoms, and the effort to control and move beyond the effects of the illness loses out every time to the urgency of the crisis situations.

The adage of unintended consequences is also contributes to situations like this. All these mass shootings have one common denominator: Columbine, Virginia Tech, Newtown, Nickel Mines, PA., and so on. They are all “gun free zones.” Large groups of people, who have been intentionally disarmed, all in the name of “safety.” Perfect targets, because they can’t fight back.

And in just about all of the mass shootings I can think of, the shooter generally took their own lives, once armed opposition appeared on scene.

So, what are the solutions? More guns, less guns, lock up the mentally ill, or something else?

I think the most important factor is mental health services. If a person exhibits mental health symptoms, treating that before it becomes a crisis might stop at least some of these before they get to the point of violence. The shooter of Gabbie Giffords had a long history of uncontrolled mental illness, and his family begged time and again to get help for him. It never came until he ended in prison.

Abolishment of the “gun free zone” would be of great help. Eliminate the killing fields. Enable law-abiding citizens to protect themselves. The police can’t be everywhere, nor do they have an obligation to protect the citizenry. Don’t believe me? Check out South v Maryland (US Supreme Court, 1856) and go from there.

And before you start talking about the abolishment of the Second Amendment, the RKBA is not about hunting. It’s about the citizenry having the ability to overthrow an oppressive government. Citizens are armed. Subjects are disarmed.

The bottom line: You can’t prevent everything. There is only so much you can do to thwart evil people. You can only be prepared to adequately deal with such a situation when it does happen.

I don’t know what to do

I am disappointed. With Obama’s win last night, he now is totally unaccountable to the American People. He was raised by 60′s radicals, taught politics The Chicago Way, and has been doing his best to enact that radical agenda. His deficits have spent more than all of the prior Presidents combined. His anti-domestic energy policies have just about ruined coal in this country. Our airports are miniature police states, staffed with capricious bullies.

I was going to put down for the record where we were 4 years ago, and again today, but it really doesn’t matter. He can’t run for office again, so like I said, there is no holding him to account for just exactly how he will ruin this country.

America rests on three boxes. The Soap Box, the Ballot Box and the Cartridge Box. The first two failed yesterday. I only hope we don’t have to open the third before Obama is out of office. Our country was founded on armed revolution. I sincerely hope and pray that we do not experience a time where the People are compelled en masse to rise up and restart our government.

It seems that the Liberal ploy of “Bread and Circuses” has hypnotized the American People.

Please, pray with me that the United States does not lose her status as that shining city on the hill, where all who follow the rules are welcomed, and all have the same chance to succeed.

5 Days to go

Like the title says, 5 days to go before Election Day.

The question is, do we re-elect a 60′s radical Socialist who is incompetent, or do we toss him out and elect someone who espouses conservative principles?

The fact remains, I want you to vote. While I do care who you vote for, I want you to make your voice heard. The job of a citizen is to keep his mouth open, and this is the day you get to do it.

Please vote.

Honor the Fallen, Part II

I hate that it has been from Memorial Day to Patriots day that I have made a post. Every hour of my life has been full with something. And there are still things left to do.

Today we honor those who were killed this day by radical Islam. Buildings fell on this day, eleven years ago. Today, a new building is being built. A ship sails the seas today, with the steel from the WTC in its keel.

The bad news is, today we are very close to that precipice of becoming a police state. All in the name of “security.” The TSA is expanding its reach, training the public to obey without question. They engage in actions that do not increase “security,” and being vindictive bullies when the People rightfully say “NO!”

I fear for my country, especially if the current administration is re-elected for another four years.

Honor the fallen

Today is not about grilling, car sales or just a day off.

Todays rest from your labors is to give you time to reflect on the freedoms you have, and to remember and honor those who gave the ultimate sacrifice to let you do just that.

Many times, America has sent its best and brightest young men and women into harms way. Many have returned in flag draped coffins. Others have been laid to rest in foreign countries, near to where they fell.

Words like Bastogne, Ypres, Chosin, Hue City, Fallujah, Torra Bora, should never pass from our vocabulary, nor the sacrifices from those who were there should fade from our memories.

Take a moment today, to remember and thank those who never made it home. Visit a veterans cemetery today, and thank them in person. Tread lightly, for heroes lie sleeping there.

And always remember those Sailors who died at sea, for they have no grave marker, other than the rolling waves of the ocean.

It’s a struggle, everyday

Before I start, I want to reiterate that if you are on ANY prescribed medications, no matter the reason, consult with the prescribing doctor before changing or stopping any of them on your own.

I have started the titration on my last medication. I normally take one in the morning, and one at night. This week, I am not taking three morning doses, on purpose. That will cut me down to 11 doses this week. Next week I will cut out two of the morning doses, and the week after that, I will go to doses only at bedtime.

I am being very careful to not make any other lifestyle changes during this process. I and my support network want to make sure that I don’t try to do too much at once.

I have been under some elevated stress the past couple of days, because I am dancing very close to the edge, and it is having an effect on me.

You see, these medications that I have been on for the past 10 years, never totally eliminated my symptoms. The meds allowed me to use my coping skills to keep these symptoms in check.

The #1 symptom that I have, is the mental image and urge to blow my brains out. Please, don’t get worried. I do not hear voices telling me to do it, nor do I want to do it. They are thoughts, “bad thoughts” as I call them, but they are nothing more. I recognize them for what they are and I do not let them overwhelm me. The coping skills that I have developed control them.

But because I have been under some apprehension over the last couple of days about this final titration, those “bad thoughts” have been a lot more prevalent and intense. I have had to turn inward several times a day, usually for about a half hour. It was especially rough yesterday, one of my coping skills is playing music, and I forgot my headphones. :(

I am also being extremely careful in “measuring” my thoughts. I do not wish to suffer another psychotic break, that would probably lead to a hospitalization. So I am being careful to bounce any new thoughts against my support network before acting on any of them.

I am holding on, and as long as I can do that, I am making progress. Those of us who have a mental illness, everyday is a struggle. Sometimes it’s worse than others. If you have a friend or family member who has a mental illness, please support them, not do for them what they can do for themselves.

Book Review

I don’t get to read books that often. I have a bunch on my iPad, but they are more or less reference works.

This book, however, was recommended by a Masonic Brother. He said he couldn’t explain the book, I would have to read it myself and draw my own conclusions.

The book, The Harbinger, draws some chilling parallels between ancient Israel and today’s United States.

The story itself is probably fictional, but what they talk about in the pages of the book are the exact opposite. The facts are clear, verifiable, and speak loudly to how we got to where we at this moment, and where we are likely to head if we as a nation don’t change our ways.

Up until September 11th, we had a divine hedge of protection protecting our country from those who would do us harm. That protection is there no more, as a warning for us to turn not to our own devices, but to turn back to God.

I don’t want to give up too much of the book, but the major events of the past few years have occurred in such a timing that it can’t be an accident. There are too many coincidences for it to be a coincidence, do you understand?

What really hit me between the eyes like a hammer was the fact that September 11th’s Ground Zero is the exact same ground Ground Zero where our country was initially dedicated to God, and when that hedge of protection came to be around us. Cryptic? Not really, not to anyone who has studied history.

This book will drive you to your knees. Not in any physical sense, but after reading it, you will feel the urge to get straight with God. Not only for yourself and family, but for our country as a whole. Things have to change substantially for us to get back onto the path God wants us to be on. It will take a maximum effort from all of us to turn this Ship of State. I don’t know if it’s too late for anything, if we can stave off Judgement for the short term, or we can avert it totally.

The signs are there, loud and clear, if you know what to look for. After reading this book, you will know what to look for.

Million, Billion, Trillion

I found this video, and I wanted to share. For all of those who think we should get the rich to “pay their fair share,” here is a great video on just how far eating the rich will get us, and if we did, the aftermath of it all.

Did you pay attention to the numbers? After taking most, if not all of the capital of this country, we paid for one years worth of Federal operations. And we wrecked any chance we had to do it the following year by doing just what Liberals wanted, eating the rich.

Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.

 

Don’t try this at home.

WARNING! DISCLAIMER!

DO NOT DO THIS!

Now that I’ve said that, I am stepping out on dangerous ground. I am stopping my medications.

I did NOT wake up one day and said “I’m not taking my medications any more.” I have reached this decision only after I have done a lot of research, a lot of thinking, and consulting with my Psychiatrist. I also realize that if I stop these medications, and I end up back in the hospital, I may not be able to go back on this cocktail and expect them to work the same way again. I might have to restart those 4 hellish years of almost constant hospitalizations and trying medication after medication until a new cocktail is found.

I have been stable on this “cocktail” of medications since my last hospitalization in November of 2002. This mix back then was literally the difference between life and death. It never totally eliminated my symptoms, but it did help me tackle what was wrong with me.

About two months ago, I started coming off one medication. I titrated (taking progressively smaller doses) over a month. My family, my friends and myself were carefully monitoring my personality and mood while doing this. I had another medication on standby that I could start taking if I needed it. That phase was successful.

Last month I started on the second medication. Again, I gradually reduced the dosage until I took my last dose for that medication last night. Everyone in my circle of support is still keeping an eye on me.

In a week or two, I will start titrating off my last medication. This will take 6-8 weeks. I feel this will be the most critical stage. My coping skills may be put to their greatest test.

Again, let me stress that every person is unique. Just because I may successfully make it off medications does not mean that another person can have similar results. I have made lifestyle changes and developed coping skills to counteract my symptoms.

Please, please, please, consult with your Psychologist BEFORE doing anything like stopping your medications. I have Bipolar disorder, I can use my coping skills to smooth out my highs and lows. If you have a mental illness with psychotic disorders, especially if you have Schizophrenia, I DO NOT recommend that you do this.

Remember, just because I managed to navigate this minefield, does not mean you can impulsively do a cannonball into the deep end of the pool.

If, after long deliberation with your multitude of counselors you decide to follow me, I wish you success.

 

A Change in Direction?

In case you haven’t noticed, it’s been a long time since I’ve made a politically or Conservative oriented entry. My life has changed direction, and it has new priorities. I also don’t have a “hook” or “leg-up” that makes anything I say noticeable above the rest of the voices joining in the chorus to dislodge Obama from office.

So, I am thinking about making this a more wargaming (specifically Battletech) oriented blog. I will retain this domain, and it will continue to direct here and the archives, but I may get a new domain to reflect the change in this direction. That name will be announced when I get to that point.

Due to cybersquatters, I don’t want to search until I have 2-3 possible names, and I have to research how to point two domains to the same IP address. Or something like that. When I know more, I will let you know.