Sad News Indeed

It is with a heavy heart that I report the closing of Gamerz Depot. It closed over the weekend, after a 3 1/2 year run. We beat the average life expectancy of the small businesses, which if they fail, they fail in the first two years. I put a lot of hard work into the store, and I am truly sad to see it go. It was a “big tent” kind of place, where gamers of every type could come and play. But, due to declining sales, we were forced to close.

It seems destined that Memphis is not a gaming store city. We have had multiple people try their hands at gaming stores, and all of them have closed their doors for one reason or another. The only reason why the GW Battle Bunker stays open is because it is a benefit to those who work there. They don’t care if the store makes money or not, the gaming space will remain open.

An American before becoming an American

I want to share this video with you. This man was an American as a child, even though he was born Vietnamese. He saw American troops fighting for him, and at that moment he became an American. It took him years to actually get here and get naturalized to become a true American citizen. But he has been an American citizen for longer than he realizes.

He gets it. America is not a location on a map. It is an ideal held in the heart, a desire to be free and to live ones life without the encumbrance of government.

He also understands the difference between Socialism and Communism. “An AK-47 pointed at your head.”

Ten Years After

Pearl Harbor. The JFK assassination. The attempted assassination of Ronald Reagan. 9/11. These were all moments that changed America. Those alive at that time remembered where they were at that moment. Each moment took away a measure of innocence.

In 1941, all we had was radio. We had to conceive with our minds the images of Pearl Harbor. The images, which came days later were black and white photographs.

The JFK assassination we had black and white television, of breathless journalists reporting the event. It wasn’t until later that the Zapruder film came out, to give us the last moment of that man.

The attempted assassination of Ronald Reagan was brought to us within minutes of when it happened, with the actual events unfolded for us.

9/11 was brought to our workplaces and living rooms, live and as it happened. We watched the second aircraft actually hit the South Tower. Sorrow turned to abject horror as the two towers fell.

For the past ten years, I have cried on this day. Tears of sorrow, tears of remembrance, tears of rage. I almost can’t see my monitor through the tears at this moment.

On this anniversary, however, I wonder if the terrorists have won. Our airports are microcosms of police states. We jump at the slightest hint of another “terrorist attack.” Their goal was to change us. In that aspect, I do think they have won. But not in the way that they imagined.

If you tear your eyes away from Washington, where we have a Socialist President and a Congress held immobile by partisan politics (not that an immobilized Congress is a bad thing, mind you), look outwards to what the liberals call “flyover country.” That is literally the heart of our country. It is where the young men and women volunteer to join our armed forces and put their lives on the line to protect us. Most will come home to joyous reunions with their families, others to be laid to rest to streets lined with American flags.

It is this patriotism that I wish to leave you with. The willing sacrifice of not only our men and women of the armed services, but with the passengers of Flight 93. The last words heard by Todd Beamer’s family from him. Words that have turned into the battlecry of every American military member, first responder and anyone about to go into harms way. They are the powerful words that have defined us over these past 10 years. It means we still have terrorists to kill, people to help and hope to inspire. It means so many things I cannot write them down, because some of the feelings don’t have words. Let us never forget those who died on this day, the sacrifices made since then and the long road ahead of us.

Let’s Roll.

Post-Con Update

Well, these two past weekends was a blast!

March 25-27th was MidSouthCon, which I held two Battletech events. I was seriously sweating that no one would show for the events. I was finishing stuff right up to the con, but everything I needed to get done, I got done.

The first event, the Poker Run, I had four people show. We had a bunch of fun, and the winner won with four Threes. I held the Grinder right after, and for that I had eight people show! An immense time was had by all. Each winner received a Gamerz Depot Pro Card, which was cut down to four drinks and one item at the con for 20% off.

I then took the rest of the following week off to get ready for Adepticon, and my son and I drove from Memphis, TN to Chicago on Thursday, 30 March. We attended some 40k Tactics classes that night, and a painting class first thing in the morning. We had all day to peruse the dealer room., where much cash was spent. We then attended a Battletech grinder Friday evening. Right after that, I attended a class on how to photograph miniatures.

Saturday bloomed, and we were up and ready to participate in a “historical” Battletech scenario. How an event in our future is historical is beyond me, but there you go. I commanded a lance of four assault ‘Mechs, and we were attacking a fixed position. I had a couple of other lances on my side, while the defenders had four tanks and four battle armors in fixed redoubts that we had to take out before anything else. We took out the first wave at a medium cost, leaving a fallen ‘Mech on the bluff overlooking the battle. The fallen ‘Mech was able to get up on one arm and lob missiles into the battle. The lance of light ‘Mechs died rather quickly, because they couldn’t stand up to the combined firepower fired at them. Both sides received a reinforcement lance at the same time. Considering what I faced, my lance lasted a pretty long time against a tremendous amount of overwhelming firepower. I probably faced a force of about 25% above the value of my lance. After 8 hours of swinging back and forth, the lance I commanded went down, taking out just about what I was worth. I went down, but went down swinging. The gamemaster running the scenario called it a draw.

Sunday I participated in a Battlefleet Gothic tournament. I played my Ultramarines force of a Battle Barge, 5 strike cruisers and four escorts. I faced an Imperial Navy fleet for the first battle, and I eked out a minor win. I was subsequently stomped by an Eldar force, as well as a Chaos fleet. After the dust settled, I got the “Better luck next year” award for coming in dead last.

Yesterday, we drove back to Memphis, stopping by Chanute AFB on the way. It took us 9 hours of driving to get home.

Today I am resting up and doing my pile of laundry (which just finished washing as I wrote this sentence). So, I am going to finish my chores, go to bed early and go back to work in the morning.

I’ll be writing again soon.

The seven percent inspiration

I read the Main Street Journal every morning. It has all of the local news that is not the “if it bleeds, it leads” kind of stories. Down at the bottom, it has posts by local blogs, such as this one whenever I talk about the Memphis area. Well, this morning I saw this post and I thought I would add my 2 cents.

Mr. Davis relates the conversation with a former student who, fresh out of college, wants to make her mark in the world, but is stuck stuffing envelopes. Mr. Davis does a fantastic job, describing why she must stuff envelopes before she can do anything else. He says,

A full 93% of my job is the stuff I cannot stand (and most likely any executive level art administrator’s job, for that matter), but I do all the stuff I dislike for the chance to engage in the thing I love to do the other 7% of the time. If we manage the 93% well, with luck the 7% will be enough to sustain us, the 7% will result in something compelling and inspiring that we can feed our need for wonder and meaning with, the 7% will keep us from burning out and drive us ever onward to do more.

The 7% is why we do what we do.

In order to understand where we are now, we must understand where we have been. Each job, each position, each career is hopefully a step up on that ladder of success, getting to that point we want to attain. The bad news is, many people grumble so much about climbing the ladder, that by the time they get to the top, they realize they got on the wrong ladder. All that hard work and they didn’t get to go where they wanted to go.

This is my story.

At 16, my first job was at K-Mart. I didn’t start as a stock boy, I started as a salesman in the electronics department. That job lasted a whole 3 months. I was fired because I didn’t pay attention to the sale sign (this was W-A-Y before barcodes) and accidently sold a $199 TV for $119. I filled the rest of my teen working life in a Wendy’s and a Noble Romans.

A month after I tuned 18, I was off to the Navy. I was full of piss and vinegar. My entire first enlistment I had average-to-good evaluations, with the exception of attitude. That I always had a poor rating on. It wasn’t until I left the Navy and rejoined that I finally got my head screwed on straight. I was 25 then. My evaluations improved, and I left as an excellent performer.

In 1992, my civilian IT career started. I jumped from job to job, never staying at one job for more than a year, with the exception of one job. That was the one where the boss never saw me, I was in Memphis and he was in Washington state. I was laid off of that job. That was the first time that had ever happened to me. My last IT career job, I had reached the top of the ladder. I was the IT manager of a company that was doing over $100 million a year in sales of office products. It wasn’t the right job for me. My subbordinate talked behind my back with my superior and others, there was a “deus ex machina” mindset in the subbordinate and the marketing manager, who used to also have the IT department. I don’t like office politics and gossip. I quit that job, heading for disaster.

My mental state at that time was confusion. I went to see a psychiatrist who said I was suffering from “Adult ADD” and put me on medication. Well, if you want to read about what happend from that point on, just read the archives of my blog.

The point I am trying to make is that my mental illness caused me to switch ladders. I am now leaning up against a different roof. The longer I stay in this career, the more I realize how much I am needed. Before, I was just a drone in the IT career. Now, I help people. I reach out to those who have a mental illness and I say, “I understand. I have been in the same place as you. I know you can beat it.” 10 years of being on disability helped me and my family survive while I went back to stuffing envelopes again, this time in the mental health field. I am now making, dollar wise, the same amount that I made in my last IT career job. I have been in this job for over two years now, and neither I nor the job shows any signs of slowing down.

I also, for the first time in any of my jobs, during last years performance evaluation, received a “superior performance.” I am very proud of that, and I have done my best in doing better this year than last year. My evaluation for last year is coming soon, and I hope to get another superior rating. I love my job. I help people, and there is no office politics. No gossip, no back stabbing to get ahead. What more could you ask for? Sure, I push a lot of paper. That only tells me where the people need help. But that paper pushing is part of that 93%. The 7% comes when I get a member on the phone and they say, “Thank you for calling. It’s nice to know someone understands what I have been through and I can relate to.”

Let me close by reiterating what Mr. Wheeden said. You have to perform the small, insignificant and boring things first. You have to do them under time, under budget and over the top in quality before you can be trusted to do the big important things. For some people, the big important things never come, because they never performed the mundane things well. So, they will always be stuck doing those things until they get the drive to show that they can handle the big, important things. If you do every project like a big, important thing, pretty soon you will be given the big important things to do.

Good luck.

74 Days to Adepticon!

Well, I received some bad news recently.

I found out that I don’t need to bring my Battalion of Mercenary Battlemechs. I was going to show up on the field, then fight for whomever paid me the most. ;)

I found out everything needed is there, including pencils and dice if necessary. This is also true of the Grinder, but I might try to sneak my ‘Mechs into the mix anyway.

So, my painting has slowed. I am still making progress painting, and I am about 40% complete. I will be taking pictures soon, not only for this blog, but for some Battletech message boards as well.

I also need to get some more Thunderhawk transports for BFG, I’m 9 short at the moment. I may have to rob some from the other stands that I already have Thawks for, and have only two instead of three per stand.

Other than that, everything including fund raising is on track and on time.

Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to pause a moment, and wish you and your families a Merry Christmas.

If you are not of the Christian faith, I wish you a happy Hanukkah, Ramadan, Winter Solstice or whatever you celebrate this time of the year.

If you don’t celebrate the holidays, then go to work and relieve a co-worker who does celebrate, and let them spend the time with their family.

Update

Like I said in my previous post, a lot of things have happened over the past month.

1. I have quit working at the store. I have invested the past 30 months of my life into Gamerz Depot. I have been the only one there, while others came and went as they pleased. It was my blood, sweat and tears that kept the store open. Last month, my family said, “It’s either us, or the store.” That kind of choice is no choice at all. I had to choose my family. I still occasionally show up to play games, but it’s on my schedule, not theirs.

2. I now spend time with my son. I now spend two nights a week, going to an exercise class with my son. He really appreciates the time we spend together, and so do I. We are also going to try a Saturday morning class as well.

3. I am advancing in Masonry. This month, I was installed as an officer “in-line” for my lodge. This means, if things go to plan, I will be the Master of the lodge in 2015. I also “conferred” a degree Tuesday night, which means that I ran the degree work for one person for their first degree. I have to learn how to confer two more degrees, plus how to open and close the lodge for all three degrees in the next 8 months or so in order to be able to advance in the line. I’m pretty sure I can do it.

4. I plan on going to AdeptiCon. The first weekend of April of next year is a very large 40k themed convention in Chicago. I want to go because there is a couple of big Battletech games there, as well as a Battlefleet Gothic tournament. The sticking point is that it’s the weekend after MidSouthCon, and I don’t know if Battalion Command (i.e. The Wife) will let me go. If I bust my buns with extra work, and save every penny I can, my son and I just might be able to do it.

That’s all I can think of this early in the morning. If I can think of any more, I’ll be sure to put them in a later post. In the mean time, I have to get to work!

No, I’m not dead

I know it’s been a while, but I’ve been busy, and things are about to get busier. There has been some changes to how I spend my time, and they are just starting to work their way out. More changes are incoming as well. I don’t have the time right now to fully update you, but that update is coming, and soon.

I just wanted to surface and say that I’m still around. Depending on how things go tonight, I might do this update tonight. If I don’t do what I’m wanting to do tonight, I’ll do it late Thursday.

See you soon.

Almost Gone to the Con!

One of “those” weekends is creeping up on me. One of those weekends where you spend the whole Friday-Saturday-Sunday awake so you don’t miss a thing.

That’s right, Gamecon is here, starting Friday! Three straight days of gaming, and just gaming until you drop.

Except, I’ll be spending most of the day trapped in the dealers room, selling games and accessories to the attendees of the con. There was a couple of tournaments that I wanted to get in on, but you know me, Mr. Procrastinator, by the time I found out about it and tried to sign up for it, they were already full.

I hope to make a lot of money for the store this weekend. We have a huge order coming in tomorrow for this and one other con, so I’ll have plenty to sell.

I should have been pushing this for a while, but like I said, Mr. Procrastinator…..

I hope to see you at the con!

Showing off the new store

Here you go folks, pictures like I promised. I’m sorry they are a bit late, but it looks more like a game store. We had to wait until Monday to get the shelving for all of the board games, and I underestimated how much we needed. So, when we get the spare cash, more slat board and shelving.

Here are the pictures. As always, click on the picture for the full size picture.



So, that’s what the store looks like. It’s a couple hundred square feet smaller, but it’s all usable space, we don’t have the bathrooms sticking out in the middle, forcing us to not use a lot of space when it came to big tournaments.

I hope you approve, and I hope you come by and check us out!

OPEN FOR BUSINESS!!!

The time has come, Gamerz Depot will be open come 5pm TODAY! I’m taking the day off to spend with family, so the mantle of the last finishing work goes to others. Which is good, because I was worn out and in pain last night. I hung the electric open sign, the notification board, and more like 70 feet of slat board, rather than the 100 feet I thought it would be. In no air conditioning. We didn’t get power until late afternoon. So, doing all of the stuff that I did, especially what I did by myself, had me drenched in sweat the whole day until the power came on.

The new store shelving (hopefully) comes today, and from now on our product will be put up on shelves, rather than on the floor.

I would like to thank all of the gamers who showed up yesterday and lent their backs and hands to help out. Without them, we couldn’t have made it to this point by last night.

Pictures will come Sunday, so look out for those.

The move is complete

Well, it’s almost complete. After two hard and sweaty days of packing, and a hard and sweaty day of moving, Gamerz Depot is completely in our new space. Now the only thing left is to setup and unpack. That will be the fun part. Today is “slat board day,” where I’m going to hang about 100 feet of slat board, all the way down the left side of the wall. Hanging that much of used slat board straight will be a real challenge. I also want to commend Greg, the owner for putting his real business on hold for three days while he waded through the Memphis bureaucracy getting us utilities, a business license and all of the other paperwork necessary for us to operate. It might sound like he had the easier job, but I’m not quite sure about that.

We should get our power today, so once the lights are on, everything will be copacetic. And cooler.

This has been a hard week, and the rest of the week isn’t looking any better. But with a bit of luck, and a lot of help, Gamerz Depot should be open tonight for Magic Constructed.

Come on by and check us out, and if you do show up, be prepared to be put to work!

Gamerz Depot is now located in the Hacks Cross Centre, 4205 Hacks Cross Rd, Suite 104, Memphis, TN 38125. This is on the West side of Hacks Cross, just South of the Bill Morris Parkway/385. We are behind Chow Time, right next to “Nuttin But Wings.” We hope to see you there!

The clock is ticking

Well, the air conditioner at Gamerz Depot has finally been “fixed.” They did a half assed job, with used equipment that is underpowered. It still gets hot in there when there’s more than five people in the store. Which is killing our business. Who wants to game in a hot store?

So, we are counting down to the move. There are a lot of things going on that I can’t talk about, but keep your fingers crossed that they all break the right way to make things smooth. I am hoping that the lease on the new space is signed on Tuesday. That gives me Monday to pack up and inventory the store, and Wednesday, Thursday and Friday to unpack it. If I get the orders I need in for the fixtures I need and delivered by Thursday, I’ll be a happy camper. The bad news is I probably won’t get the order in until Tuesday, and delivered by Friday.

I have to wait until the painters and carpet cleaners to do their thing hopefully on Monday, then cut and hang a bunch of slat board. You see, the space used to house an HR Block office, and one wall is that atrocious green they use.

So, as always, I have a long way to go and not a lot of time to get there. Hopefully I will have some help this time.

I’m also beginning to get suspicious here. Every time I take a week off, I work harder on my days off than I do at my day job. I have got to stop doing this!