There, but for the Grace of God...
This is an extremely sad story: Deadly rampage leaves loved ones asking why.
It's about a man with Bipolar Disorder who kills two people, seriously wounds another and then kills himself. There, but for the Grace of God, go I. I have told you before that I have had the Memphis SWAT team out to my house to capture me. Twice. It's not a sight you want to see, stepping out of your house to see a dozen armed officers, training their weapons on you.
I have been so close to what this man did that it is scary. Those thoughts and images haunt me to this day. It is not a right mind that thinks, "I'm going to take them with me" outside of a battle in a war.
The good news is, I am on medications that, for the most part, keeps those thoughts away. Oh, sure, I still think about suicide, but they're more of a flash thought and no real impetus behind those thoughts. No driving force to carry them out.
I am very strict with myself about taking my medications. They sit right here, under my monitor where I can see them all the time. They are in a week long pillbox, so I can easily see if I have taken my medications today. I have no excuse not to take my medications. It doesn't matter if I feel good or not, I still take them. I will never fall into the trap that because I'm feeling good and stable, that I don't need to take them. It is by taking them that I feel good and stable.
Don't worry about me. I highly doubt that I will end up the same way. The chance is there, always, but I have urges like that under control. When life starts getting out of control, I know what to do to retake control of myself, and violently lashing out is not an option.
This man's family, and the families of his victims, will never know the answers to the questions that they have. They wouldn't make sense to a rational mind anyway. The logic of an unstable mind is difficult to follow. While it makes perfect sense to us, it doesn't to the rest of you.