No, this post isn't about rockets. I'm not sure what state I'm in, either flying around manic or crashing into depression. It could literally be both, with my fast-cycling bipolar. All I know is there is stuff out there that I want to comment on, but can't muster up the proper motivations in order to make a coherent comment on these complex issues.
No, thankfully, I don't have any impulses to hurt myself. For the longest time I had an mental image that I couldn't get rid of. The image was sticking a gun to my ear and pulling the trigger. I wasn't suicidal by any means, I did not want to carry this urge out, but I had to force it down constantly. Since my current cocktail was developed, that image has slowly gone away. I can't remember the last time I had that urge.
Keep hanging on with me folks. I know I can make it. It just takes me a little longer and a little more effort than most people.
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