I haven’t filled you in lately as to my personal condition. I have used a +10 -0- -10 scale to relate my mood and personal outlook. Just for scale, +10 means I’m climbing a tower with a rifle, -10 means suicide all on my own. Zero is as close to normalcy as I’m ever going to come for the rest of my life.

Well, according to that scale I’m probably at a -2 nowadays. I feel better, but not quite right. I’m still having some difficulties with getting the medication just right. I’m about to start taking an extra 150mg of Trileptal at noon to see if that doesn’t help.

I also got to see my family yesterday. I went up and fixed a couple of problems with the RV, had some pizza with them and then took the bus home. While my time up there must be short to prevent overload, time with my family is always appreciated.

I’m expecting a visit from my case manager any time now and so I must get ready for him.

Later.

Here is a classic case of foot-in-mouth disease. Kerry’s Plan: Ban U.S. Weapons to Stop WMD Threat.

Kerry believes if we beat our swords into plowshares, the rest of the world will follow suit. Sure. If we did do so, we would be using said plowshares under the whip and sword of those who did not.

You do not beget peace by giving up weapons, especially when there are people sworn to your destruction. You get peace when everybody realizes if you pick on us, you will be killed in very short order, without mercy.

That threat has kept us alive these past 60 years, but now we face a new challenge. You cannot deter a man who is committed to die by threatening to kill him if he tries. You can only kill him before he can kill himself killing you.

Either that, or get the society that is producing these fanatics to stop making them in the first place. Which is what we are trying to do. If this experiment works, we won’t have to wipe out Islam as a religion to ensure our safety.

The drug companies are continuing their push to medicate our children. This article, Antidepressant Seen as Effective in Treatment of Adolescents even lies about it.

The article says that a Prozac regimen is helpful to adolescents, but when you dig down into the article it says this:

The researchers also found that patients became significantly less suicidal, no matter which treatment they were given. No patient committed suicide during the trial. But the risk of a suicide attempt among the patients given Prozac was twice that of those who did not, the study found. There were five suicide attempts among those given Prozac and just one among other participants. [emphasis mine]

I’m sorry, but a 5:1 ratio is not “twice” the rate, it is *FIVE TIMES THE RATE*. And just because no one succeeded, it doesn’t mean due to lack of trying.

These drugs, while helpful in many cases, can ruin lives just as easily, and my life is just such a case.

The bad news is you can’t tell until it’s too late.